Updated: Jan 11
Today I woke up earlier than I usually do because I went to bed earlier than I usually do. Now I'm awake at 7AM and I'm not really sure what to do with myself.
I've already turned on my motivational music and podcast. I don't feel like going back to sleep, as I'm grateful to have awaken and am excited for a new day. I definitely do not always feel like this, so I don't want to lose that feeling by resting my head on the pillow again. At the same time, it feels too dark outside to go for a walk. I've also been working on not just stressing about what I have to work on that day as soon as I wake up.
So, I guess I'll write. I've been wanting to start writing again, now that my book is finally published. I've found myself missing writing. Though there are many things I get to do now that the book is out, I want to make sure I don't lose sight of doing what I love. One of which is writing, and the other which is actually spending time with young people.
Writing helps me maintain clarity of my "why" and my goals. If I don't check in with myself consistently, I'll just go on with my day and forget about the intentions I had ever set in the first place. When I write and post it publicly, it's even better because it creates a track record of my progress.
I really like writing without any ulterior motive. I enjoy this free, journal style writing. I still struggle with writing for a particular audience or on a certain topic sometimes. I don't really enjoy putting in hours of research for one blog post, so whatever you find here is going to be all my thoughts— do with them what you will.
Whenever I think about creating a blog post like this, my brain tells me not to do it: that no one will read it, that no one cares, and that people only want tangible, short takeaways. While that may be true, that just feels so impersonal. Maybe a "5 Ways to Thrive in High School" would get more views, but would those people stick around, and continue to be interested in my content?
Okay, maybe I will make some blog posts like that. However, I'm still going to write blog post like this as well. Why? Because it helps me create new content for you by sorting through my thoughts. Also, it gives you an inside look into what's going on behind the scenes. You may find that what I am struggling with is similar to your struggles, and it could even help you feel less alone.
If you don't like blogs like these, then you don't have to read them. I'm not doing any harm by putting them out there. Think about that the tnext time you're too nervous to put out a piece of writing or a clip of your song. If you're worried that no one will see it, so what? I think what worries me more is that people will see it. Though I'm nearly over that, that fear still lingers in the back of my head sometimes. What helps me is to imagine those people who are looking up to you, not the critics, and keep them in mind when you are writing and posting.
So anyway, here we are. It's now 7:30, and I'm starting to get hungry. I only have eggs in the house and need to go grocery shopping. I went to California for a few days, and now that I'm back I kind of forgot that I have to get back in the habit of cooking for myself. Life might seem easy for everyone other than yourself, but everyone, and I mean everyone still gets tripped up sometimes. For all you middle and high schoolers reading this, just because someone is in their 20s or has published a book, that doesn't mean they have everything figured out. Heck, even your parents don't. It doesn't mean we haven't acquired a lot of wisdom and experience, it just means we are navigating a new part of life too.
I've been thinking a lot about what to do next now that the book is published. Granted, this is a shorter version of the original book, kind of like a little teaser from a series. I was getting caught up in marketing and briefly forgot that I must think longterm as well. So here's what I'm thinking for the near future:
Set up a weekly "book club" for Gen Z (I wish I had a better/cooler word for it, but might just start with this and adapt as we go.) This will start this upcoming week, I just have to get my ducks in a row to get it set up.
Start going to the schools of students who have personally reached out to me (Start with Texas, Florida, and Massachusetts first.) Get a sense of what they want (i.e. author talk, workshop, book reading, etc.)
Continue generating more written content for my Toolbox, as well as for my next book (my audience is asking for a books on confidence, social media, and breakups, so we'll see which is first to make it into the queue.)
The idea is to use the rest of October, November, and December as my pilot months to test out a few things before solidifying a plan for 2021. I'm excited to share with you what I've been thinking about for 2021 and how you can get involved in the journey. Until then, I hope you have a great day!